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Fears and Tears
Fear, It's in us all.
Short, fat,thin, and tall.
Each and everyone, single and unique,
Each having certain reasons, that make us freak.
But then there are the fears, deep inside my heart.
So many in fact, I don't know where to start.
I have the fear, that you'll hurt me,
But this emotion is so enjoyable,
So how on earth can it be?
You just don't seem capable.
I have the fear, that I'm too afraid.
I have the fear, that this won't work.
That everything will disappear, that we have just made.
All the memories and good times too,
All the emotions and butterflies,
But not everything lives forever,
Everything dies.
I'm afraid that my parents aren't proud of me,
That they don't accept, I'm who I want to be.
I'm afraid that I can't prove myself,
Because I always screw things up.
And when I do try, it's never enough.
I'm afraid that my little brother,
Is going to get hurt.
Because he'll find another,
Who is better than me.
He looks up to me,
Like I am Supergirl,
Always willing to try,
And give things a whirl.
But if he see's,
That I am only me,
It will shatter him in two,
Wondering what to do.
I'm afraid to speak my words out loud,
Because if I do, I'll stand above the crowd.
Everyone would see me, and all my imperfections.
Then they'll try to change me, and make the "necessary corrections"
The fear of losing you, and loving alone.
The fear of leaving, and living on my own.
The fear of pain, and losing someone dear,
The fear I hate the most, is the fear to cry a tear.
Afraid to be ourselves, letting the world know,
The fear of growing so close, then letting go.
Being afraid, to smile and laugh,
Or be frozen forever in a photograph.
Afraid to know the truth, but not wanting to lie,
The fear of knowing someday, you'll have to say goodbye.
I am most afraid, that others don't accept,
That i haven't become everything my parents expect.
I'm afraid to be me, afraid that if I do,
I'll lose everything, including you.
~Amanda Jackson
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